iDreamiLiveiLove

Someone close to my family passed away this week. And it has really made me think about things, I have seen who is there for me when I need them and  who I can trust. The scary thing is today I looked at what I thought and use to be my best friend, my first love and I realised that even in the few months of being apart I have no idea who he really is. Is love really blind? Or was it not love just friendship? All I know is that i’m young and carefree, I have my whole life ahead of me and you never know when bad things can take that away from you. Live in the moment, not the past and not the future. Live for now and if those people make it to your future you have one hell of a friendship.

How I feel right now. Confused, sadness and just a gut feeling. So much going on right now but just have to keep pushing through, weird not having my old bestie to help me through these times and sometimes it makes me sad. Thats what I miss the most just how he use to solve all my problems! But things change and now i’ve got to start solving myself & proving that I can do it. What to do what to do though. 

Today my trainer said I should try this new thing called ‘taking the stairs’ this was after an hour long cardio workout. Already dying I attempted to run up the stairs. And I did it.