i have trust issues because of you. what are you gonna do about it? you let me down all those years and now i’m left again to pick up the pieces? don’t lie to me anymore. if you can’t be there for me don’t say you will, i’m over hoping. sorry i’m not perfect.
But when you find it, its worth all the money in the word to hold on to it.
Being single again I realised how much I missed my girls and my other friends, I know in the next relationship it would be so different. I would hold on to my own independence and I wouldn’t change for anyone. Not that it was a bad change, but I just lost touch with a lot of people that I shouldn’t of, I guess thats why we didn’t work in the end.. But now we are friends that makes me happy to! And i’m still excited, I still want to be swept off my feet and taken on dates! I wanna fall in love again, i do.. but this time ill be more careful and I will stay true to myself.
Its funny how people act, like if you really look at some people and try to understand where they come from, and why they act certain ways. Like why some girls need all the attention on them, and have to get things there way. And other times theres those girls that shy away, to scared to say something. What is the balance? How can you be seen to be out going but not cocky? How can you tell people what you really think without being a bitch? And how can you keep somethings to yourself when everyone is wanting to know everything about you!
And where do I lie?
Girls fall in love with what they hear,
Boys fall in love with what they see,
Thats why girls wear make up; and boys lie
- wiz khalifa
Getting through this, and proud of myself. :) Smiles haha.
don’t know what to feel anymore. i am over him, but still hurts to see him with another girl, that use to be me.
Cry for yourself, and cry with someone else. Its a lot more healing, and tears bring you together with people. Even if you think that friendship is lost.
<3 Live a little.
Chuck Palahniuk
AHHHHHHH! So ready for my exams to be over, todays one went so SHITE that i don’t even know how i went or if i will even pass, worst feeling ever!!! I have never felt like that so hopefully i scrape through. failing is not an option! but is sure doesn’t put me in the study buzz for my last exam tomorrow. freedom awaits me! let me at it.
Its over, for real this time. And i said my goodbye. And the fact that i’m smiling right now means i’m going to be okay! I can get through and I want to get through it. I am beautiful, special and unique. I am who I wanna be and I know where I wanna go. I’m me and no once can change that. And I don’t want them too! I’m free, i’m young and i’m single!
World, watch out!!
Or did I break my own? We are ready to move on, we both just clung to the fact of what we had and what we missed, but its gone now and it makes me sad but its really over and we have to accept that, things change to much in a short amount of space and feelings change even faster, painfully, but faster.
I got to keep moving on, and doing what makes me happy. Its now or never.
The chapter has closed, or the book has ended, and i need to become the author or a new book.
He just broke my heart all over again.
what do i really want? can i look past all the hurt and pain he caused me? can we really make our relationship better because of this break? can i be sure he wont hurt me again? how do i know its genuine and hes not just lonely?
WHAT DO I REALLY WANT!
the past few weeks ive said i was happy and to move on, but i still missed him everyday and thought about him every day. but i danno if i can put myself in a position where he could hurt me again, i know i have grown us a person. but has he?
im in love with him. and he wants me back.
We talked today and it was just like old times, it felt good and I know he was hurting to and I know I really meant something to him. Who knows whats going to happen in the future but right now i’m happy, and excited to see what my future holds!
Life is what you make of it. And today i’ve decided to make it something!
Moving on up.
Is it awful wanting to get over him before he gets over you first? Playing games.
so much to look forward to!
